Green tea snowskin mooncake.

SUPERB!
DELICIOUS!
YUMMY!
WOO-HOO!!!!!!!!!

Haha.
I'm so in love with it.

Gimme... MORE~

Law test yesterday.
GG already.
LOL.

Yesterday was my boy's pay day too.
and he bought snowskin mooncake for me.
=D
Yummy lor.
I din't expect myself to actually crave for snowskin mooncake.
Haha.

And he added 50bucks to my savings.
=)

Sometimes, we hated each other to the core, but sometimes, we're so lovely.
It's like a roller coaster ride.

This is funny.
I was out with my cousins the other day, and I've no idea how we ended up doing this.
Ok. So this' it.
We are trying to do this pose.

It's his signature pose, and it is suppose to be a hamster.
He does it in a really cute way sometimes.

So we tried.

This is hers. Cheeks too fat i reckon. lol.

And mine...

LOL. Chubby cheeks obstructing. haha!
Then Kaiboon came, and we went to the airport cuz the kids wanna go.
(for what i have no idea..)

Doesn't it look like some scenes from horror flicks? lol.

Are you thinking what I'm thinking?
lol.
SPIDERMAN!

There's a lot more photos.
View them at my facebook.

Random Photos!

I love pyjamas. They always make me sleep better.

My xiao gong zhu.
She's such a cute hamster. lol.

Till then~~

My all time fav topping!
Hundreds and Thousands!
And yes! The name for this topping is called Hundreds and Thousands.
Don't play play.

It's the time again, to count the number of bruises I have.
LOL.
I have...
one 50c coin and one 20c coin on my left arm,
one 10c coin on my right arm,
one 50c coin on my right thigh,
one 50c coin on my right knee as well as a swollen bump,
and one small tiny 1c coin at the end of my right eyebrow, but it's hurting like SHIT LA.

This is getting even more crappier.

Sick.
Better to depend on myself then.

I just want to feel that Im important to you, that Im your first.
But you made me feel that Im behind every thing.
Maybe we are together for too long that you started to feel that it is not important anymore.
Every single thing, you put yourself first.
wants me to give in to you, compromise you.


What about me...?

Sometimes, I just hope that you can make the effort to do something for me, like how you make the extra effort to go buy herbal tea and pass it to me.
Not that I want you to do things for me, or to serve me or to be at my disposal.
I just want to feel that I am special to you, and that you care about me more than anything else.
I want to feel the sweetness.

Is it too much for me to ask for?
=((

I know. My temper is bad. And i am trying very hard to change already.
But are you helping?
No. Not helping at all.
You know that all that will agitate me more, but what did you do?
You just say that I din't do what I promise so you dont have to, and keep doing things that you know for sure that will agitate me, making me worse.
Sometimes i wonder, do you really love me still, or do you just want to get back at me?
Or is it that you enjoy seeing me like that?
I apologised. All i need is you to stop saying me, stop pointing fingers at me, stop nagging at me.
But what did you do?

Everything tt I mentioned, to you, is a small problem.
Everything you mentioned, is big problem.
It's always like this.
Din't you realise?
Everything you want, and CAN, get away with just a 'sorry'.
Everything, I can't, and NEVER WILL, get away with just a 'sorry'.

I've tried.
There are many times, I tried to be cool with whatever you'd done but deep inside me, it hurts like shit.
I din't voice it out, cuz I know for sure that at the end of it, I'm the one crying like shit, the one being blamed too, and the one looking and sounding unreasonable.
All i can do is to cry out in the toilet, and tell myself to ignore it or bury it deep inside me.
And when I'm out, I tried my best to put a normal front.
My skin is smiling, but my heart is bleeding like fuck.
I realise, that I am resorting to this.
At least, I feel better this way, than to voice it out, receive all those shit, being slapped hard with "it's a small matter", making myself feel dumb and stupid, and at the end of it, feeling even worse than me crying it out alone in the toilet.
I really wonder, for how long can i do this..

My boyf thinks that reading New Message does not equal to checking of phone.
Isn't it the same?
Intruding privacy?

And I am being ACCUSED of opening his fucking New Message when I din't even do so.
What a wonderful boyf i have.

fuck. I'm feeling damn fucking sick.

I have been having sushi for 3 days in a row. It's superb. lol.
And I'm still craving for more.
=S

Nice weather today.
And i spent my day working on my website.
Drained all my energy.
I'm only left with the last bit for me to write it down now.
Hah.
There's sooooooo much more waiting to be completed.
Tiring tiring tiring.
Hai.
Who says staying at home is not as tired as working outside?

Alright. Time to get my eyes off the comp.

Before I'm off and at the end of this post,
I
WISH
FOR






MORE SUSHI!

Business Law???
GG already luh!
haha. This phrase is sooooooo ancient and school days!

Damn. I'm so positive that I won't do well for law.
Hais.
At least, Stats and accounts are more on Maths and I prefer Maths.

So now, I wonder how i can survive next sem.
wow.
3 damn modules that's poles apart from Maths.
Die.

I'm super tired.
Din't really sleep last night cuz my brain was working too hard. I was flipping here and there, and poof* it's 5am, then 8am, then 11am.
There's so many things on my mind.
There's so many things that I wanna do. Haha.

*Not in sequence*

1. Do my tutorials.
2. Do my assignments.
3. Study for my test in the meantime.
4. Complete my piece.
5. Do something about the band.
6. My website.
7. Get started on Class 3.
8. The same with 2B.
9. Music theory grade 5!
10. Esplanade Library.. before it closes for F1.
11. Sushi crave is back!

Photos.

Crazy boy.

Tummy rub. LOL.
Me: Why you put your hands at your tummy?
Yv: Cuz my tummy's very big!



It's so rare to get her to be in photos.


Where is it?
It's VIVO!

The LJS there is so much nicer. Haha. Random but beneficial.

And we went Expo after that.

lol.
Hahahahahahahahahahaha.
What's with that expression.

He tried to shoot me!

And i head shot him. HAHAHAHA.

A tired and happy day.

=)

Hah.
Now, I wish i have 48 hours a day.

Sushi sushi. Where are you?!?!?!

Music theory grade 5 next year.
Anyone wanna take tgt?
=D

Yes yes yes.
It feels so great to be surrounded by music scores!
Damn shiok.

How does it feel when someone treats damn fucking cigarettes with more respect than he treats you?

Yayaya.
I'm the most unreasonable in the whole wide world.
Whatever.

At least i don't worship cigarettes.

BORED!

But i had fun hanging out with dear friends yesterday.

Although we din't chat like this for like... going a year or what. HA.

Everything seem to be the same still.

Music music music.

Where are you?

I have 5 bruises.
One, is as small as a 20cent coin.
One is as big as a quail egg.
One makes my knuckle looks dirty.
Another is as faint as a burn scar.
But there's this particular one.
My cousin says it looks like a heart.


How amazing.

Things will never be the same anymore.

It's time to be brave and live my life.

My new love,
Camomile.

It doesn't matter if I lose myself in the process.

Father? Teacher? or Master?
In your opinion, what i need is discipline, not love.
I am sick of living. I need a real lover. Not those above.

Why, even when you're beside me, I don't feel you.
You seem to be miles away.
So distant, so cold.

Usually you're the first, now you're always the last.
It may be something small, but it shows.
I don't know.
Maybe things have changed.

It's giving me sleepless nights.

If this continues, I rather be alone.

I know, i know.
I am ranting about it again and again.
But what can i do?
I really need to get it off my chest.

Maybe one day, i should just disappear.
Seriously.
What can i do to get myself out of this?

I feel so sick and tired.

I hope things will get better from now on.

Pandan Chiffon Cake anyone?
=D

Food, can you cheer me up?
You're yummy.
Are you in Singapore?
Hmm.

Life is always unfair.
I don't get to do what i want, and whatever that I have seem them coming, I can't stop it cuz nobody listens to me, or should i say, nobody cares what i say.

Fuck, I'm hating life MORE AND MORE.

I had a super bad night and a terrible morning.
So tell me, what is love when there's no trust?
Torture. Suffocation.

I'm so afraid of socializing now, that I totally don't do so anymore.
I feel so sick answering those tons of questions being bombarded at me after I get to know somebody new from my class or whatsoever, especially when they're guys.
And what else?
Getting sms bombs when my classmate send me to the station?
Afraid that my classmate will kidnap me?
So i reckon that I can't judge who's the good person and who's the bad person?
I am so naive? or stupid?
I am blind then, treat me like I'm blind.
Or treat me like a retard?
Should I be doing that to you too?
Bombing you when you're with your friends? colleagues? strangers?
Bomb you when you're working?
Cuz there's a chance that you might meet someone insane that he would kill you?

And how does it make you feel, if you're being treated like a three-year-old kid?
Can't cross the road on your own cuz the cars will bang you.
Can't go out on your own cuz there'll be bad people out to catch you.
Can't eat on your own cuz you'll choke yourself.

So should i be doing all the above too? to you?
I am twenty! for goodness sake. But I'm treated like I'm just three.
And I've met my fair share of people to differentiate who's the good guy and who's the bad guy.
I've seen enough to know what I should do to protect myself.
I can say that I see so much more than anyone else at my age.
I'm old enough to know how to survive in this dumbass world.

I'm so tired of all these. Might as well quit my class and lock myself at home 24/7.
Even if i do so, I will be bombed again when I din't notice the sms sent to me.
Life can never be more tiring than this.

Say you trust me, but your action doesn't show at all?

And you slept through the time I felt so sick and terrible.
When i woke up sick, I don't feel any love to make me feel better.
I'm so sick and tired.

Extremely tired, of everything.